i have always though this was my depression talking, or my intrusive thoughts, because, yeah i had that feeling that all my freinds were just pretending to like me, like i could talk to them but coudn't speak about important things, personal thigs for the fear that i would scare them away, but when i actually opened top them they where super accepting and they even told me some stuff from them, i thinks thats great, and gladly i think i beated my depression this year, so try not to think to hard about it, those voices are lying